One of my favorite songs off of Sarah Groves album Miscellaneous is, It Might Be Hope. I like the lyric, "hope has a way of turning it's face to you just when you least expect it." I was feeling down the past couple of days and I had really been praying and searching God I found comfort in His word and in praying but I just couldn't get a breakthrough. I finally did in my son Caleb. It was like he turned his face towards me and that became my hopeful moment . His eternal optimism, his strength, his courage, his quiet thoughtfulness inspired me and lessened my feelings of hopelessness and despair. I am so grateful for my son. He came at a time in my life when I was heading down a road of self-destruction and due to him I turned on the straight and narrow once again. I remember the first time my son filled my heart with hope. It was the Fourth of July and I had been overwhelmed in the past months of becoming a new mother, a single mother, a young mother....I had experiend post-partum depression. I needed hope. I took Caleb for a walk around the block and saw the fireworks over the bay. I looked down into the stroller and hope surged into my spirit. I can do this, I thought. I love my son and he loves me. I pray that you see hope in the face of someone or something today. God can use anything or anyone to renew your spirit and I'm so glad God continually uses my son to bring hope and blessings into my life.
First and foremost I am a Child of God, a Woman of Hope who loves Jesus with all her heart and wishes to share that hope with others. I am also a stay at home mom who earned a degree in social work. I love to read the Bible and continue to read about social work and psycholgoy and my other interests such as poetry, health and fitness, Christian literature and Afican-American culture. I like to increase my knowledge about other cultures particularly the African-American culture due to my son being biracial with my European Anglo heritage and his father's African-American heritage. I have been divorced for 4 years and my ex-husband has since passed and I find it a struggle and joy to raise my son with the help of my biological and church family. I love my church Spirit and Truth Ministries "The House of Radical Praise and Worship" located at 910 West Madison Street, pastored by Tracey and Sherma Shoemo. I can't help but believe God has called me to this House of the Lord, Spirit and Truth Ministries for "such a time as this." I would like to share with the readers of this blog my life experiences and testimony as I proceed as a woman of hope in an often hopeless world.